The last weeks of this decade

Had a lovely brunch today. It was a very belated birthday brunch with a dear friend. I hadn't seen her in a while, and it was a joy to reconnect. We exchanged perspectives and wisdom, and I came away as ever with her, feeling refreshed and uplifted. Those people are important in life.

Then it was time to see another friend, an older lady of much joy and I suspect even more wisdom. We had a little heart to heart today, and the effect was such that I feel blessed to have two such women in my life. A good gal pack is hard to gather, but I feel the start of one beginning to form.

On the outside of life (In my head)

I was always on the outside of the family. Told that people would hate me and/or would never care about me. So this is how I feel about people in general. Unless they show an obscene amount of interest, I will periodically convince myself that they don’t care about me and I don’t matter to anyone. 

Even though I know it’s not true.